why my life sucks?? why does it have to happen in my family? no at this very moment i don't know what to do i was like FREAAAAK!!!! I WANT TO SCREAAAAAAAM!!!
to the point: i don't have a father i killed him when i was 6 (in my memories) i hate him. spell HATE it goes like this G-O-T-O-H-E-L-L!!!!! (IKR im harsh). i hate him because he used to hurt my mother a lot. that's why mom and i run away like hell. like we we're being chased by some sort of evil spirit (without him knowing. he was at work that time). we don't want to escape but at that time i know the problems got worsen and worsen (i dunno if the grammar is right. sorry k?) tho i was just a kid a small one, that doesn't understand any i really am mad. at that time i was just going with the flow. he hurts my mom (with my eyes wide open), he curse my mom out loud (while me studying in the living room), and others (its kinda personal). maybe you're thinking im over reacting but you know what? you know nothing. you don't even know what he is capable of. as time passes by when we ran away (without him again knowing were in the world we are) i really did not find him nor expect that he'll come find us (obviously, i don't want him to find us i don't want to see his freaaaky face begging for us to come back). i have lots of poppa!!! i have lolo, 4 tito's, and A GOD!!! (i still believe GOD has a plan tho. all in my momma's side.) as i grow old, i accepted everything and forgiving him. but WTH am i doing now? why am i mad if i forgive him? shit. in few month's time i will be 18 and my mom will be annulled (im glad) and now im here sitting and typing in my laptop madd. WTH??? so here's the thing i read my mom's annulment papers, she wrote everything what my father did to her. and found out very nasty i really hate my father i wanted to kill her but then i am a good girl that's why i'll be finishing pharmacy and then i'll take up law and i'll file an case against him and send him to jail with a sentence of lethal injection (i'm kinda bad and harsh but hey!! i can't contain it anymore. i hope this will happen.)
one day, i'll stood in front of him saying "I BET YOU REGRETTED HURTING MY MOTHER!!! LOOK WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO YOUR FAMILY!!! FREE AND RICH. WHILE YOU?? SINKING IN THE DEPTHS OF SORROW!!!" i am not going to accept him being my father. tho im not here typing without his sperm!!! but WTH he made a wrong zygote out of his sperm!!!
life has its own ups and downs. like mines. at this point i may say that i am very mad about what i've read. and i can't help on doing this kind of stuff. i can't contain it anymore. i need to burst. but WTH im known being a good child so im doing BLOGIN!!
